For years I have been saying she is going to kill you or cause you to hurt someone else badly. For months I hid in my room too scared to leave it, never knowing what mood he would be in when he got home. For weeks I sat on the lounge dreading him coming home. I told him more then once I had enough of it all.
Last Friday, my son, after yelling at his ex girlfriend for over 2 hours hit me.

I had to listen to him getting increasingly more angry, I even at one stage went to my room scared to death  and crying, I said enough when he threatened to rip his ex’s throat out through her spine. I took the phone off him. Smashed his mobile which I owned, so she could not call him. She had been calling him none stop all day, but to the police she said he was calling her. He had no credit to call her so how was this possible, his phone was ringing none stop.

I took 4 steps back and the next thing I know my arm is killing me and I am watching my partner drag my son out of the house. IT took me 7 or more time before I could dial the phone to get help. My front door was wrecked and the doctors say my arm is fractured or broken, I am in that much pain a week later.

I tried to get help for my son. I begged his father but he refused to even talk to me after the assault. He blames me for getting in the way, causing problems. I hadnt spoken to my son in weeks. He was told never to come home in that mood, he did, was I supposed to let him kill his Ex, would you have done nothing. Remember this was going on for over 2 hours and my grandson was with his mother. He is 2 and subjected to this every day.

I live my life in fear, that one of his mates will attack me if I leave the house. I have been getting hate mail and I had to change my phone number, more then once.

I was just starting to leave the house alone again, just starting to lose the fear of being outside, Now I am scared and afraid that my son will seek revenge, I live knowing the police fear for my safety. I live knowing that no one is helping my son or protecting him from his ex abusing him daily.

I just want to live in peace and play games and read. I am so over drama. I had enough of that when I was on second life.

Is it too much to ask for peace of mind and freedom of fear.

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