OK deep down I know I am loved and I am not alone, but that does not stop me feeling all alone. This week has been hell and its taken a toll on me. I have lost so much that I wonder who will be taken from me next. I want to scream but the scream wont happen. I want to cry but there is no more tears left. I want to hide and mm yes I have an exit plan. Its hard to pretend everything is ok when everything is falling apart.

So I sit alone knowing things just are not going to change for awhile anyways. I have to banish all the bad karma and bring forth a new day. Clean and fresh.

Makes no sense then that is not strange because nothing makes sense anymore.